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Thursday, October 09, 2008

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This is another long long day at school, from 1pm till 930pm..
Did nothing much except playing with numbers for valuation project and attending uncle ho's lecture which was like a talking set of lecture notes. But it's good that he is going to make the lecture webcast, which means that next week onwards many people willn't attend his lecture anymore.

After lecture, headed down to vivo to surprise zhenrong.. HAPPY 26th!!!
Bought his cake from breadtalk and then we had to play "catching" with him in a way, because he was supposed to come out to the sky terrace, but he took the escalator down instead. So we sang happy birthday to him while we went down the escalator..come to think of it, it seems rather romantic!!! hehe!! Then we headed down to holland V's 2am dessert bar, the variety is limited but apparently many people go there. To me, it's a place that visiting once is even unless I am craving for desserts at that weird time.

Then I had a wonderful plan to be carried out after I graduate! I shall go master the skill of making pastry, and then open a dessert cafe too. But I shall challenge 2am dessert bar by opening my cafe till 3am. On the way home, mel and me were discussing and we come up with some interesting names, like midnight cafe..half past two cafe (so will open till 230am)!!!

Just home from the celebration and having many thoughts on my mind about my life for the past few days.

I think I am beginning to accept how things are and I am no longer like the past whereby I will want to fight for the things I want. And I am no longer bothered by whether I get the answers that I want since the other party doesn't seem that interested and anxious in providing me with the answers. Guess had this happened in the past, I would have broke down and start to think of what happen, why are things like that...
Now, probably as time goes by, and matters aren't explained..
Maybe the mind is thinking rationally and telling the heart to just leave matters alone, and if life has to be like that..then so be it.. No point pushing and correcting matters to how they are meant to be, because there is also a possibility that it shouldn't be in that manner.
There are many other things in life to place more emphasis on, not that this matter isn't important, but since it isn't progressing at all, then what for invest a empty shell! Should time allow, physical factors, time factors, human factors allow for changes to be made...then maybe that should be the time to step in and amend and make matters better than before. Don't see the point of forcing matters now, can say that it was a tried and tested method for previous times, and apparently it doesn't seem that effective and useful, otherwise there willn't be a NOW!
Well..I can't really say I have matured in my thinking, but maybe I just don't have enough energy to divert to that matter now..there are many more other things that I should place more emphasis on.
If that area no longer works well, then maybe it's time for me to spend the time more wisely on things that I didn't focus on previously.
Is this equivalent to commitment? According to the lecture notes, if this component is absent, then it doesn't constituent to love..because love comprises of 3 components

LOVE=commitment + itimacy + passion

Does effort play a role too? Or is it part of commitment?
So... No effort = No commitment = No love