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Friday, March 30, 2007

{ freed on 22:49

hmm..over last wkend i went for a MRT trip..to bangkok..so sudden rite..out of the blue..nearing exams already and i went for a holiday..

anyway i went with mama only..we ate quite alot..walked alot..did alot of stuffs..
we went to chatuchuk mkt..then we bought bbq prawns and crabs and desserts back to our hotel to eat..yum yum..drank baked coconut juice..we went for a jap meal..had teppanyaki too..ate crispy pancakes from the usual stall in MBK..went supermarketing for unique flavoured chips..
most importantly..bumper harvest for my shop..NEW STOCKS!!!

rather satisfied lah..hoping that during term break i will be able to venture out to other cities and buy stuffs back..haha..planning shanghai and japan..whaha..but 1st...need to earn more money to buy myself a air ticket first..haha..

now still rushing my part for urban project..hmm a rather last minute thingy..but jiayou bah girls..mayb its just left with me not yet compile with theirs bah..sorry ah.. :(

hmm..having bad headaches nowadaes..probably lack of good sleep bah..have been on bad terms again..as usual..

tmr mama goin bintan for company retreat..hmm i oso thot i had the time to go then i can go suntan..haiz..its just a 45min ferry ride..seems so near but its so far..

okie..brain constipation is a bad thing to experience when trying to rush a proj..the ideas are there..but yet cant put to words..hmm..how i wish for the brain to xie nao!!!

abit more to go..trying hard to make it happen...

Friday, March 23, 2007

{ freed on 02:20

yipee..i am going on my MRT ride again..
but this time got to bring my notes and tutorials there to clear them at nite..
so many things to do..still got project..
girls..sorry to have abandoned your..will bring back good and pretty stuffs for ur ok..ur just tahan abit..i will be back to join u all soon..

i want a bumper harvest!!!

this trip i think will do us good...cos we will be apart..mayb some thinking will do us good..but again we been thinking for so long already..

anyway..just thinking whose that annoymous fellow tagging me..own up lah!!!
super irritating to see such stuffs..why poke into other people's business..
like as if each person dun haf enough troubles to be bothered about..

i am frustrated!!!

why is it that things that are meant to happen just dun happen..

according to space..auntie tu says that maximum waiting time is 45mins only...

Thursday, March 22, 2007

{ freed on 00:11

I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL

{ freed on 00:00

River HongBao

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

{ freed on 22:51

just when i thot happiness was approaching me once again..sadness came along and took it all away..when i happen to just saw light at the end of the tunnel..a blackout happened..i was happily climbing up the rainbow and i suddenly slided down again..

i thot that everything was going to be ok..and happier again..or rather i could have happiness again..the feel of being fortunate didnt really lasted..i wished that all these hadnt happen again or rather they never happened..i rather had things remained how they were when we ended them all..the feeling of being hurt again is worst then before..nothing can ever patch things back..it just hurts more each time..why give and take them all away from me again..

am i just being silly of imaging all these things or are they happening to me again..i just want to leave this place..

{ freed on 02:41

monkeys found in NUS..Raffles museum..did u ever know such a place existed..now u know!!!

part of our bio assignment..visit the musuem..kinda a experience for me and mel..almost like an exact replica of "night at the musuem"..we kinda scared ourselves..imagine..all the creatures there were once alive..and now dead and preserved there..hmm..errie lah...got time ur shld check the place out..sure to enjoy!!

Monday, March 19, 2007

{ freed on 23:36

last week we went on food hunt..haha..hunted whole of bukit timah area..went to eat penang food at this little shop house..then too full so decided to stroll down the road..ta da!!! saw island creamery and we went to indulge on ice cream..after that too full to move already..then we went down to orchard..

me and my penang assam laska..super yummy

he ate prawn mee..prawns big and juicy..soup taste fantastic

whaha..best food of the day..banana boat..3 scoops of ice cream..teh tarik, horlicks, nutella..all from island creamery..just so heavenly lah..

this is to reward myself..$100 voucher courtesy of dept of RE..i won a merit award for the tagline competition..whaha..

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

{ freed on 01:26

my supper for today..we went to lau pa sat..ate stingray, satay, veggie and drank teh tarik..super milky but i love it..so shiok..been a long time since i ate like that..besides that nite when i went geylang to eat shao bing..

anyway recently i just did a count of number if wks left to exams..gish..5 only..and i got 6 modules so 1 week 1 module also not enuf for me to finish revision..die lah..still got reports and projects to clear..anyway my hongkong summer programme ka-poot already lah..just maybe haf to pin for the SEP in sem 2..or i can just plan my own trip there this cuming hols..

to SSB..i may be taking my MRT soon ah..so got any requests..hurry submit them ah..hehe

to my dieticians: i am eating ah..

Sunday, March 11, 2007

{ freed on 01:45

friday..well had a quarrel again..kinda killed my mood for the day..by right i have been making myself think that we are friends now and i cant demand or ask anything from him already..but yet somehow in this transition period..and since he doesnt really take it as we are 2 individuals..there are just somethings i feel that he could have tried to do and could haf made things better between two of us..or mayb let me know and see and feel that he is making an effort in trying to win back my heart...woman are fickle minded creatures la..

anyway i was happy on friday..after the fight..i went to redhill to pass items..then i tried to call mum and ask her eat with me..but was unable to get her..so i went to city hall by myself to hunt for food..but no nice food and since i wasnt having appetite..so i strolled into starbucks and got myself a iced mocha and a chocolatey muffin..then mum saw my missed call and called me..i told her i was studying there and she asked if i wanted eat dinner with her..i told her see how 1st and asked if she wanted to "eat snake" and come down from office to meet me..then again fone batt flat so i shut it..ta da!! after 1 hr mum appeared in front of me..haha..then we talked for like 2 hrs..gossiping..boy i love that..then she brought me to ding tai feng for dinner..

since that boy made me angry..he asked me out for a movie..ok lor..i went out with him..watched "music and lyrics"..nice show..but however i din really enjoyed myself cos i wasnt feeling well..felt like puking so i was like sleeping thru..semi conscious..anyway the music were nice and i wan download them..hehe :) after that i came home and was super uncomfortable and went to bed..slept for 12 hours..hehe..piggy...

{ freed on 01:42

ma la steamboat..hehe..finally i managed to get my whole family to accompany me to eat it..got 3 kind of "la".."xiao,zhong,da"..of cos we choose xiao lah..was rather shiok..nice food too..especially since i this whole week hafnt been having much appetite to eat much food..so i am quite happy with dinner..hehe..

{ freed on 01:37

Princess TonTon's Royal 22ND!

Thursday, March 08, 2007

{ freed on 00:27

what is chance?
is it given or meant to be seized?

in the case of monopoly..chance may have appeared in front of u..however it isnt always within ur reach..if ur lucky, with the roll of the dice..u may really just chance upon chance..but still..ur chance depends on wad lies beneath the card..it isnt sth that u can choose wad to do..but just act as circumstances are for u..like if u have to go to jail, then u can only go to jail unless u bail urself..

so do u have to ask for chance?

doubts..suspicion..questions..answers..
are they always predictable?
are they always wad the seem to be as u imagined them to be?

why???
why when things are wrong, there must be remedy for it?
or mayb certain things aint remedied as yet..
will it be remedied?

why say out certain things and let it be known..
does it do any good..
why ask for certain things when u know that it may not happen..
why pin..why get hurt..why tear..
why say sorry..

why is it so difficult to achieve happiness..

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

{ freed on 00:20

thank you for everything...

today i survived the first lonely day of my life..or at least since the day i started uni life..anyway..all wasnt lost..i had my frens who showed concern for me and i thank them..initially i was tired of all things..and began to cheer up..till..when i saw how other couples were able to communicate well..have fun..laughter..joy..and then i thot of mine and felt that it hasnt been a fairy tale..i saw how some cherished the chances that were given to them..made efforts and harvested returns..but yet to some..chances mayb meant nth..or rather..some just din want to make the effort..free loader i say..well thats me lah..no point beating round the bush..cos in the end it will be a cycle and everything will just return to me..i am happy for those who managed to salvage by carrying out their promises, made efforts, committed...yesh at the instant when i saw all these things i wanted to cry out loud and hard..for my heart ached..but i held them back..just felt the sourness and the pinch..but still no one but me suffers..tears..aches..

to me..if even bystanders can see that there was indeed a chance..it shld be cherished..but why so when the party involved doesnt even or probably try harder..anyway..i think i am just lost in my own world..tired of loving and being love..cos its a tiring thing..wads the point of being attached when there isnt much happiness...just let it be..i tell myself..i dun wish to be bothered by such matters already..all i wan is to be happy again..

a love and hate situation..which is more..probably the latter..the love maybe there, feelings are arnd..but nth is done..or mayb sth is done, but in the wrong way wrong method wrong fashion..why do certain things when probably it could be a wrong choice made..just shows how well u understand someone..and then comes excuses...its damn tiring lah..i just wan things to be straight forward..i dun wan to drag andpin my heart for things that probably will never happen..
ego..pride..self esteem..
wad are they..
man's best friends..

love..coax..sensitive..attention..
wad are they..
woman's best friends..

wad are the difference?
man and woman's friends are never friends of each other..
that's why man are from mars and woman are from venus..
bcos we are just 2 different species

583th day

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HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA!!!

today we planned a surprise party for mel..our 38 daily gossip mag editor..also my nuer..hmm..it was successful..thou she suspected us..anyway...it was fun lah..pictures speak a thousand words..so i shall just wait for the pics and upload ltr..anyway just wish that all her dreams will come true..true love be showered upon her..blessed is she..

Monday, March 05, 2007

{ freed on 22:56

today or rather just a few minutes ago..my fairy tale ended..however it didnt end like any other fairy tale..not happily ever after at least..does it mean that books lied to us..or is it just me and him..

in the end..probably we still duno wad each other really wants from each other..although most of the time we say that we know..we been dragging..we been saying that we have been trying to change..we have been saying that we dun wan to fight anymore..in the end..nothing of the above happened..we were trapped in time..remained at where we were previously and probably didnt move on to be a happy couple..we say that we wan each other to change..changed till the extend that probably we have lost our ownself..the true "i"..

we thot we were meant for each other..till the future..we say that we love each other..but each time we hardly respected each other and conformed to wad the other wants or said..we admit that we are stubborn in our own ways..but we just dun really give in to each other..so mayb this is the end..

although we hate this ending..although many say that we shld give it another chance..we were said to be in love deeply..but somehw we dislike each others doing..we compared with others..but wad is the point..we didnt change anyhow..mayb thru this..we may find back ourselves..proceed on to a better fairy tale..or probably down the years..we may get back together..or mayb..

there were happy times..how we met..how we talked on the food..went out for meals..watched movies..just like any other couple..but somehow..the feeling and atmosphere changed along the way..at least for me..although there maybe no need for u to do those little things..but as i said they do matter to me..i mayb childish in my thinking..but this is how i wan my fairy tale to be..along the way..although we said that certain things dun matter..but somehow they do..we expect sth to happen..our expectations rose..we demanded more unknowingly..our tolerance shrunk..we dun seem to be that in love anymore..

time..yah time spent may not really matter..but still..we may have spent much time tgt..but at least they were not quality time..just time spent tgt fighting..how much worse can it get..just persisting over the year..

anyway..i really thank you for all that u have done..and..i am sorry for all the things that i have done to you..although u may say that i didnt...but still..our ending came to an end..

will it start again..