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Friday, October 31, 2008

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ok...congrats lydia..
finally chapter one is done up, and proof read by prof pete, that is my dad..he says everything seems ok..so i trust him..given his calibre and that he proof reads many of my bro's and my reports..assumingly he's a good command of english and is well read and knowledgeable and witty and informative...haha..i am just praising him to the skies, but he doesn't know..

anyway..hopefully i get ok statement from my sup..and meanwhile got to work on my literature review..
this is tough..with my limited vocab..

Thursday, October 30, 2008

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i am feeling lazy to do my work..but i still have yet to churn out the required of my 1st draft..ok i shall just work towards completing my chapter 1 now..and submit tmr..and then pia during the weekends for my lit review..

now still got to work on finishing up valuation, friday is the deadline..nearly there..
and tmr will be research project which the TFA is already killing me..

today went to IRC to borrow finanacial books in order to help me in doing the modern portfolio theory, but i don't seem to know the book..anyway..the power of being a graduating student..the IRC is generous to let me loan out 2 books at the same time, though only allowed one at a time..and had to return in 2 hours..librarian thought i want to photocopy, but i said i just need to copy some definitions..

YSM 101:
bachelor degree=BSc=bull shit
masters degree=MSc=more shit
doctorate=Phd=pile higher and deeper aka permanent head damage

just now had dinner with DD at MOF bugis..not bad..and i had more stitches...
this time..2..which seem similiar but different..
same same but different..
and i was caught unaware..
the 1st one was a diary for 2009..
then i asked him keep for me in his bag..but he said no space and ask me to hold on..he repeated his statement twice..but i didn't catch it..
after staring hard enough..woah..it was another stitch book, but this time was note pad and letter pad all in one..
interesting!!!

and yes..tomorrow is halloween..and we are going drinking..every friday is happy hour..!!!
tomorrow will be able to see alot of people dressed up at clarke quay..
cafe iguana only allow zombies, vampires and goblins..all other monsters on case by case basis..

today got to xie xie my nuer mel..going sch earlier with me..hehe..
next week onwards we shall start camp in sch..study for test!!!

and well..anybody need or want anything from espirit..i got birthday discount 20%..
share the joy!!!

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HAPPY 39TH MONTH TO US!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

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part 3 of DD's birthday celebration

today we went to sentosa, weather was pretty OK, given that there was no rain or drizzle but neither was there a strong sun for us to tan..just spending time lazing at the beach..

sentosa is totally changed!! got a shock when we drove across the bridge..the roads have changed totally because of the resort world..and gosh..the development is huge!!!

we went to vivo for tea break...ate ben & jerry's..double belgium waffle with chocolate therapy which is indeed therapeutic enough, super chocolatey..and chunky monkey..also a chocolate euphoria icecream shake..imagine after consumption the amount of extra calories incurred..then we walked around vivo..and then headed home..and then...off for dinner..went to simpang consecutive 2 days in a row..haha..well can't resist the extensive menu that spize has..we had roti john and chicken wings..ice tehO limau!!!

and now..the celebration has ended!!!

back to reality..DISSERTATION!!

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friday...cafe iguana..our drinking session..mexican food and magaritas and tequila are just such a terrific match..simply can't resist them...this time..i got a new favourite..pineapple magarita..think i am almost done and tried all the different fruits of magaritas..hehe..with the exception of banana...

this coming friday..brewerks..beer time...and of course..buffalo wings...

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part 2!!!
after back from southern ridges....we headed for clarke quay....

we had dinner at pump room..food and ambience was great...

and yup..that white mountain looking thingy was DD's birthday cake..which was our dessert..hehe..

we wanted to go club that night..tried to jio people along..but numbers insufficient, so we didn't go in the end..

nothing to be disappointed..cos his birthday celebration isn't going to end just with part 2...

DD taken off from work tomorrow and we are going to sentosa...part 3!!!

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YEAH!! finally we made it to the southern ridges!!! we been wanting and wanting to go there, but somehow everytime weather plays a fool with us..

remember the 1st time we tried to go there, after we parked car at nus (free parking) and wanted to take bus to habour front to start the trail, and it started to downpour, so we head back to the car and drove home...

this time around..while we drove on the expressway it started to drizzle, but DD says hack care and say we should just go ahead..so we headed for habourfront..and when we reached there, it was bright and sunny and no umbrellas were needed, but sunnies...

we started from marang trail...alllllll the way to hortpark...took about 2 hours..not that we were slow but we stopped and took pictures and enjoy the greenary, huge trees and flowers...and of course the view..how about bangkok???

well..this was part one of DD birthday celebration...

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first up!!!
saturday had dad's birthday celebration, dinner at a hokkien restaurant with his friends and us..
of course, dinner was paid and shared between me and bro..
interestingly, seeing those 6 men, who are all near retirement age, of course including my dad..
things that they discuss..really makes me tickle..
there's a developer, a contractor, a banker, a property agent, an accountant, a finance personel..
all in all, actually when they all decide to retire and maybe want to set up a company..there are all well versed and prepared already..they can set up a property company..
one developers, then constructs, 2 to handle finances $$$, one to do the mortgage and loans, and finally one to market and sell the development..whahaha!!!
and of course if they want, they can always hire me too..after all i am a real estate grad, soon to be!!
and then, they all start asking when i am graduating and yes, now its going to recession period, and so all the old wise men say..when economy is bad, hard to find job, then carrying on studying..if economy good and can find job, then stop studying..so the 5 friends were all persuading and telling dad that he should let me continue to study and do masters..or even so, go abroad and study..how about australia? since the currency is falling...hehe..maybe i can go there to learn baking!!!
they were all my dad's friends either from secondary school, or NS army..or when from his 1st job..and they all had a common notion about my dad..an accountant's money is really very hard to earn..

Thursday, October 23, 2008

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another day of school has ended! Like what maggie also does, countdown..tomorrow is FRIDAY!!
finally today managed to get the spreadsheet of profits method done up, nearly there and completing le..no worries..hopefully *cross fingers*
today after lecture me and my nu er supposed go on a date, belated children's day..haha..wanted go to dempsey's PS cafe, but when we left school, started to drizzle slightly then we decided to head home instead..and we planned of maybe next friday after r&p project discussion, we can all go there for dinner and maybe celebrate halloween too!!! who's interested???

this weekend is going to be super duper crazy..
tomorrow is brotehr's bdae..
saturday is dad's birthday dinner
sunday is dear's birthday..
then monday is public holiday..
tuesday so far nothing yet, but will need to do projects..
wednesday got? i not sure..
thursday got valuation proj to discuss and finalise some things
friday is submit dissertation 1st draft which i hafn't done yet..and i saw my sup today..mel tells me to treat my sup to kopi, and make friends with her, so that maybe her making will be more lenient

31st oct---1st draft
7th nov---valuation project
13th nov---valuation presentation
14th nov---HR test
17th nov---research (mini dissertation) project

after that is exams..don't know should say if lucky that only got 2 exams only..but the projects are killing already!!!

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my gosh..been suffering all day long..
last night came home shivering, and i ended up wearing track pants to sleep to keep warm..
morning woke up having some flu and fever...
now just before i want to sleep, i am having runs..

best of all..
my lappy is spoilt too..i got windows error message and lappy can only operate in safe mode..how safe is that?
like fenella says..my lappy has telepathy with me..both of us are "spoilt"
had a shock when i first saw my lappy ownself restarting and shutting down due to the error..of course..abang aeron to the rescue lor..called him and asked him how...hehe..
alrights..after scanning for viruses and what nots..nothing can be found!!! as usual!!!
then now how?? provide me with step 2!!!

well i give up on valuation tutorial..my brain doesn't seem to function..the tummy is making me feel weird, and the headache and burning sensation at my neck is irritating me!!
according to ah gong kitwan's pulse taking that day..he says i have frequent headaches and that my QI is weak..maybe i can consider taking up qi gong to improve my qi..haha!

okie..this coming weekend is crazy for me..so many birthdays..
brother..daddy..arthur..
i am so going broke..no moolah $$$
somemore i already burn a super big hole from my HK trip..well well..don't buy them presents then my problem is solved..but pity dad's dinner will be shared cost between me and bro..and bro..we usually don't buy each other presents..dear's one will have to see what he wants..

yawns..i am going to bed now..tmr will be a very long day and hopefully my body recuperates well from tonight's sleep..last night was bad..it was so tiring..

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MBAK YIRONG!!!

today in school, we gave her a surprise party..
we ordered pizza hut and we were innovative and creative..we used pockey as candles for her..so there were 23 pockeys poked into the pizzas!!
deja vu..last year her birthday celebration also happened to be pizza..hmm..
project pizza?
well hope she had fun..and of course we had fun too..it was a success cause she totally didn't expect at all..anyway it was intended for wednesday, the actual day..but its a surprise..due to unforeseen circumstances that lecture is cancelled..
well hope her wishes come true!
happy time celebrating with her parents..rem to blog ah..update!!!

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yeah!!! i am back from my weekend getaway in hongkong..this trip has been very fruitful and good harvest of shopping as well as eating..but now i am suffering from leg aches from too much walking..hehe..but i super enjoy myself..however now have to start doing all my projects..ok shall not let this dampen the spirit of my blogging of happiness first!!!

arrived in hongkong at midnight, me and mum immediately put our bags in our room and went out for supper..our favourite sotong ball soup!! time to sleep to replenish energy for next day's shopping!

we had breakfast of you tiao, soya milk, chuk (congee), sesame ball..then off to tung chung outlet.
too much bags to carry, went back to hotel and then had out lunch cum dinner at 6pm only, brought her to my new hunt cafe..we had jap cum korean food and a yummy dessert, crispy thick toast with ice cream!!! after storing some carbs, we went to woman's street!!! and time for supper again..

we had dim sum the next day, followed by desserts at sweet dynasty, pity the tauhuay was not available..so i had mango sago! we explored for korean food this trip..and its terrific..korean BBQ was cheaper than spore and yummy too! the previous trip we explored vietnamese food..each time we go to hongkong, we discover something new! at least it wouldn't be boring and gives me more joy to even visit HK more often!

YUUMY FOOD

FUNNY MOMENTS

-we were waiting for MTR and this girl (maid) comes up and starts talking to me..in bahasa indo..my gosh..she assumes that i am a maid too..so i just asked her "mau pergi ke mana?"..then 2 other maids nearby called out to her, and she must be thinking why me a indo maid can't speak proper indo..and that maid got to be assuming my mum is the housekeeper (guan jia)

-on way to airport, another maid speaks to us..but this time..filipina!

this guy is promoting himself and seeking for a potential girlfriend..not that bad looking after all! told mummy that maybe i just offer him my contacts, then he can end his day's work..after all HK guys are romantic and TLC!

a dog with PINK hair!

not forgetting..mel's krispy kreme! this is their latest promotion..
halloween seems a very big event in HK..pity i don't get to celebrate it there, of only this weekend was free to go too..it will be super happening!

more pumpkins by the roadside

times square is nicely decorated and getting ready for halloween..what's with the pumpkins?
was tempted to steal one of it back home...

and lastly..TADA!!!!!
this is my most priced purchase!!!
its a STITCH wearing the MOTAR BOARD...

mum got it for me..next year may during my graduation she will bring it to uni hall for me..
while everyone else carries the nus lion..i will be hugging this cute fellow...
probably HK is having their convo ceremony soon, because pratically they have all sorts of characters from xiaodingdang to super mario's turtle in convo gown..
lucky me..i must say..managed to get this..and the shop is the sole shop!
there were other stitches in the convo gown, but somehow the rest doesn't seem as correct as this one to me, the shopgirl said the looks of stitch is different, and i observed more, the fur type was different too..when i saw this fellow, i knew this is the ONE for me! it was calling out to me..
gosh..i can communicate with alien experiments..hehe

Friday, October 17, 2008

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YEAh YEAH!!! hahahahaha...
finally our prsentation is over and done with!! a tap on our backs!!!
woke up super early to reach school by 8am..my gosh, worse than when having to wake up for exams..
anyway..we managed to complete everything within 20mins...and happiness that the feedback from our classmates are not that bad..they had been entertained and enjoyed our presentation..
i did our own questionnaire during my com med lect..and apparently my dominant style of conflict management is evry weird..its COMPETING and ACCOMODATING...that's like i am stretched across the whole graph of thomas kilman model..i am high assertive as well as high cooperative...which apparently seems to be collaborating..haha..weird weird..rong say its like my unknown and known thingy..i am a neither here nor there..sit on the fence??!!

okie..now i am an hr away from going to the airport!!! hongkong here i come...eat and shop and eat and shop...
my shopping list..mel's krispy kreme donuts and her vivi magazine...
should be have to buy clothes for my bro..
boy boy says just get him anything nice..
myself..buy the whole hongkong back..conquer!!!

ok girls..sorry..feel so bad..abandoning you all while you all discuss about our mini dissertation project..your jiayou..i bring back brain food for you all..

next week going to be hell and crazy..so many birthdays to prepare..and so many projects to do...roars roars!!!

okie..shall go pack my last minute stuffs..and take my passport and air ticket!!!

ahdios amigos!!!
i will be back

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oh my gosh!!!
HR presentation is in a few hours time..we have been doing it for the longest time..video & powerpoint..
think tmr all of us will be pandas man..after that 25 mins of presentation..there will be a super loud sigh of relief!!!
jiayou girls..xin ku le..!!! staying back in school till so late..we can do it!!!

ok..after this is done..i need to pack my bags..and go to bed...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

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oh my gosh, even without lecture tonight, we stayed in school till past 9pm..
super brain dead day!!
luckily we managed to RESOLVE all last minute hiccups about the videos and our presentations, thanks to our audience-lewis and mingwei..
tomorrow will be last time we can rectify things, and after that friday's the actual thing and nothing else can change already..

boy came to school to meet me, supposed for dinner but we ended up having supper i guess, hungry to the point that we don't feel hungry anymore..so we went to selegie to eat tauhuay, you tiao and sesame ball, pity peanut's sold out so ate lotus filling instead..not that satisfied but at least filled me up..

just watched the repeat telecast of bobby ouyang's show..hmm the ending is kinda cartoon le..not that realistic..something that i didn't expect but at least happy ending..a touching show...

teaching me how to be filial to parents, spend more time with them before the chance is gone..
in one's life, you will meet triplets once-LOSS, REGRET..and opps, i forgot the last one..hehe
but the basic idea is to cherish what one has before its lost and you will regret..
its a joyous thing celebrating birthdays...but at the same time, with every additional candle being added on, it means that a person's life is shorten by a year..
another way of looking is the person has gained an extra year..
guess it the same theory of half full or half empty..

well count down 1 day!!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

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BRRR..it's cold in the SR..
just me and mbak in the SR, because prof ho is on MC so his tutorials and lecture is cancelled..
so by right today is a free day, no need to come to school..but have to rehearse presentation and also having other projects meetings, so still have to be in school...

just ate finish lunch, but it feels like there's worms in me..stomach is still growling even after eating lunch..GRRRR...
having a craving to eat french fries now..but i shall abstain from it..
growing too fat already..dy/dx rate of change is expanding at an increasing rate, which is very very bad..

just now abang come over to sde irc to help me check my laptop for that apparent msn virus that fen received from me..so nice of him!!! but apparently after scanning all the stuffs and what nots..nothing could be found..so in future if any of you receive a msn virus from me, pls let me know the contents of the message, like whats the html or something..because with that then abang can trace it an help me remove it..so meanwhile all i can do is touch wood that nothing happens..and yesh..because he owes me too many cups of kopi already..today he treated me to lunch..haha..so i treat him back drink lor..for coming to check up on my lappy..joyful!!!
rong is busy playing with her yearbook thingy now..just now she made a photo of me..and i belong to the 1960..gosh!!! looks like i have a face that suits spectacles..maybe i should just make a pair of spectacles and wear permanent..hehe..

just now made a video call to boy..then made him show me around his work station..looks empty and not very colourful and tastefully done up..so maybe i shall help him to spice it up soon!! maybe add some feathers, pillows, soft toys...haha..then it will look like a childcare centre..

at least things now are better between us already..sometimes when things happen, perhaps there is really no rush to settle matters but over time it will settle down and also for the parties to resettle and sort things out with themselves first before settling the issue with the other party..
but of course..his way of not doing anything is a method which i dislike the most..so he has got to change that away..we are working together to improve matters..he always says that it takes two hands to clap..but at times i want to clap he don't want le..hmm hmm..clap with his feet?!

alrites..time to do my powerpoint for later..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

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my dinner...a bowl of tau huay..an apple..half a bag of potato chips

2 days of the week has past..i am even more anxiously looking forward to this FRIDAY..my big break..my finally awaited weekend getaway is coming...thousands miles away from this sunny island to the cool breezy autumn hongkong..
i get start planning my shopping itinery and eating spree already...
i am going to shop till i drop and eat till i grow fatty bom bom...
hopefully manage to do allt he school work that i need to clear, before i get to enjoy my weekend, and of course after that more stuffs lined up..dissertation and mini prof ho dissertation project to do..

any girls want anything from HK?
snacks?

my msn is sending out virus again..roars!!! abang tried to help me remove the virus..but apparently something wrong with my lappy's administrator, so i was unable to run the programme..must i go to school tmr at 8am for him to diagnose my lappy..hopefully not..i don't think i will have the energy to last frm 8am to 9pm..and most prob tmr wouldn't be attending prof ho's lecture, because got to do valuation instead..and i want to have a good yummy supper..craving for waffles!!! ice cream!! hot fudge!!!

today that toot toot boy forget to bring his handphone to work..so whole day we were "sms" through email lor..roars..with technology advance..really hard to pass the day without a handphone..so inconvenient..luckily he remembers my handphone number..

new photo softwares for SSB to play with..guess fen must be happily making yearbook now..haha..wonder what's rong's housemates reaction when they see the yearbook photos that she created for them..shocking???!!!

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rain rain rain!!! whenever need to go school, the skies just will pour non-stop.
why can't it rain when it's a day that i don't have to go to school, like rain from 7am onwards, then i will have that want to stay in bed, cosy feeling..
wet weather dampens the mood of going school, the wet feet, carry umbrella..
and for the past 2 weeks, friday afternoons after HR is so bright and sunny that it tempts me to want to go swim, but usually after that when school ends, the evenings will start to rain again..
the weather, the skies are playing a prank on me!!!

has been a super duper long time since i went to work out..
i want free time, so that i can hit the gym and shed some fats off!!!

today after school, went to vivo g2000 to help bro choose some clothes, to find out that that outlet doesn't have black label so no shirts for him, ended up selecting ties for him instead. i had to be sneaky and take a photo of it, send mms to him, wait for his reply then i can get the tie. at first was a purple tie, then it seemed kinda gay, so ended up with a brown striped tie instead. i walked like don't know how many rounds inside g2000, in the end i also chose a top, blue knitwear.
after all those walking, had dinner at vivo and ended my night with a cup of caffine from starbucks..apparently that caffine isn't helping me to stay awake, but making me sleepy..it's homeopathy taking place!!

so much work to do, and so little time..

Sunday, October 12, 2008

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Feeling old and a super lagging brain.
Nothing seem to be getting into my head and I don't have the energy to do my work.
ARGH!!!
Already week 9 approaching...

Last friday was a killer, not only because of lasck of sleep from the previous night because of suffering leg cramp, but also the cold air con and hot sunny sunshine that gave me a headache.
Had lunch with rong, fen, mel at fong seng...the usual ikan bilis beehoon goreng and horlick dinosaur. But I guess the ones at simpang bedok taste better, and the dino is much larger there, and colder too..hot weather in need of icy cold drink!!!
We spent 2 hours there chatting, recalling the past of SEC, really brain draining, but fun too!! We even started recalling what clothes each other wore, best of all, rong imagined mel had certain clothes which in fact she doesn't or maybe it's a different colour. I guess we hadn't really solved the mystery of mel's mysterious PINK shorts!!!
After that. we all headed home, at first me and mel planned to watch movie..
But coming home wasn't bad too, because I took a long nap till 7pm.

Yesterday went to town watch eagle eye, not really a fantastic show. Found the ending rather abrupt and also the storyline kinda resembles minority report and also another movie which I can't recall the title now..All about this central system "brainy" thing that controls everything and later going haywired!!

I am seriously addicted to caffine and now can't last thru the day without coffee at all.
But interestingly, friday's com med lecture talked about homeopathy and it seems that coffee can cure insonmia, but the common notion is that it keeps one awake. So now how?
Does the theory of "yi du gong du" really works?

Now I shall make a giant cup of kopi..

Thursday, October 09, 2008

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Today I only survived on one meal..my scrumptious macdonald's mc griddles meal!!! Went to school to have breakfast with the girls before we had our HR meeting and filming session.
Today was a very long and tiring and yawny day for me, but was very funny during the filming process. Especially all the props that we had and the enthusiatism shown by kenneth. Suddenly feel that there is a person who can even ownself self entertain more highly than SEC, it's like he is a notch above us..I can't wait for the final videos to be done up, and we review..hahaha..

This semester seems very handicraft..not only did we create props, but we are also going to build a model..something similiar to primary school project..rather excited about it!!

Saying that I only had one meal today, and kopi to provide me with caffine..but stomach began to growl while on the way home..so I feasted on my caramel cake from canele, which was supper for me last night..mummy went paragon after work and bought for me, and she was waiting for me home last night to eat dessert with me, but because had celebrated ZR birthday..feel so loved!!! YUMMY!!!
I am craving for more desserts....

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This is another long long day at school, from 1pm till 930pm..
Did nothing much except playing with numbers for valuation project and attending uncle ho's lecture which was like a talking set of lecture notes. But it's good that he is going to make the lecture webcast, which means that next week onwards many people willn't attend his lecture anymore.

After lecture, headed down to vivo to surprise zhenrong.. HAPPY 26th!!!
Bought his cake from breadtalk and then we had to play "catching" with him in a way, because he was supposed to come out to the sky terrace, but he took the escalator down instead. So we sang happy birthday to him while we went down the escalator..come to think of it, it seems rather romantic!!! hehe!! Then we headed down to holland V's 2am dessert bar, the variety is limited but apparently many people go there. To me, it's a place that visiting once is even unless I am craving for desserts at that weird time.

Then I had a wonderful plan to be carried out after I graduate! I shall go master the skill of making pastry, and then open a dessert cafe too. But I shall challenge 2am dessert bar by opening my cafe till 3am. On the way home, mel and me were discussing and we come up with some interesting names, like midnight cafe..half past two cafe (so will open till 230am)!!!

Just home from the celebration and having many thoughts on my mind about my life for the past few days.

I think I am beginning to accept how things are and I am no longer like the past whereby I will want to fight for the things I want. And I am no longer bothered by whether I get the answers that I want since the other party doesn't seem that interested and anxious in providing me with the answers. Guess had this happened in the past, I would have broke down and start to think of what happen, why are things like that...
Now, probably as time goes by, and matters aren't explained..
Maybe the mind is thinking rationally and telling the heart to just leave matters alone, and if life has to be like that..then so be it.. No point pushing and correcting matters to how they are meant to be, because there is also a possibility that it shouldn't be in that manner.
There are many other things in life to place more emphasis on, not that this matter isn't important, but since it isn't progressing at all, then what for invest a empty shell! Should time allow, physical factors, time factors, human factors allow for changes to be made...then maybe that should be the time to step in and amend and make matters better than before. Don't see the point of forcing matters now, can say that it was a tried and tested method for previous times, and apparently it doesn't seem that effective and useful, otherwise there willn't be a NOW!
Well..I can't really say I have matured in my thinking, but maybe I just don't have enough energy to divert to that matter now..there are many more other things that I should place more emphasis on.
If that area no longer works well, then maybe it's time for me to spend the time more wisely on things that I didn't focus on previously.
Is this equivalent to commitment? According to the lecture notes, if this component is absent, then it doesn't constituent to love..because love comprises of 3 components

LOVE=commitment + itimacy + passion

Does effort play a role too? Or is it part of commitment?
So... No effort = No commitment = No love

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

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To fall in love with love
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To fall in love with the person you are in love

What is LOVE?

Think once upon a time I ever asked myself this question..
It's rather similiar to asking yourself to let your heart or your mind to rule your decisions..
Doing a simple test of just clasping your hands together can determine whether you are a thinker or a feeler..
Initially I thought I was a thinker, that is being rational..but in actual fact I am a feeler. So does that mean that I am a thinker who thinks that I am a feeler??

To be rational or to be emotional?
To look at things from perspective or just go with the feel?

At this very moment, I guess the emotions are surfacing but yet I don't wish to entertain them at all. It's a very tiring thing to handle emotions and all the nonsense that tags alongside it..
Guess one very good way would be just to invest my time into other matters and when the need arises for me to handle those emotions, then I will do so..

This time around I guess I am better at controlling my emotions and not to do anything drastic..
But somehow it seems to be the wrong approach..but yet I think that it's the most appropriate.
What's the point of doing more things and could end up confusing and complicating matters more and at the end of the day nothing is improved at all.

I am ...
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Besides growing taller, I have also grew sideways which is a bad thing. And the emo thingy can actually aid in losing weight because of lost of appetite, but if not controlled properly..the adverse effect would be indulging in more food and thus growing even fatter.
My tested and proven method would be to just bury myself in work such that I will lose my appetite, because studying is something which I never like, so it's a chore for me.

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Today's lunch with erin and shiwei was cancelled last minute because erin's laptop fan spoilt and she needs to go down to simlim to repair immediately as she will need it for her work tomorrow, so guess we will just meet another time..and it's no worries coz we are all at NUS..

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Yesterday mum stayed home with me all day, happiness!!! She cooked dinner for me, though simple fare but I like it!!! And dad boiled logan red date drink for me too..logan and red dates help to nourish blood and improve blood circulation then my limps wouldn't feel that cold..
Family warmth!!!

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Monday, October 06, 2008

{ freed on 16:58

sigh..sobx..this weekend definitedly wasn't what i anticipated or wanted or hoped for..
surely it will take time to tide over and surely some how this issue will affect us and be brought up some how in another argument..although said that it shall be forgotten...guess the issue may have already caused some "trust" to be lost..

time to trace back those feelings and thoughts...

is this how things are supposed to be, if want to be corrected, what are the correct actions and words to say such that this matter wouldn't surface again..tough decision...
yes i may have made the wrong move, but it wasn't made with the intention of hiding anything..just to prevent any complications, but perhaps from other points of views, my case is definitedly invalid..

(i don't like that rat that ranted on me, though unintentional)

time to forget about the issue...and perhaps shouldn't do much more to make matters worse..just let it die down..
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on saturday met teresa for lunch. finally that girl is back from her work and travel and travelling around USA and Taiwan..practically gone for more than half a semester and this semester she is going to graduate..i also want this kind of holiday! where is my weekend getaway???
i shall just proceed to plan my year end trip to Japan and Hawaii!!! sushi and suntan!!!

looking forward to tomorrow's lunch with erin and shiwei!!! yeah..and being sian of nus food, so we will be going out to eat instead...hehe..

today was supposed to go school to study and accompany abang..but my doc appt dragged and took up more than half a day, so i abandoned him..but on friday i discovered that his lab is pretty conducive for studying, so probably i shall hang out there more often..
doc says i am fine for the time being, at least shouldn't worsen in 6mths to a year when i go back for my review..things are under control unless any weird happenings..
i love my doctor!!! smart, sauve, handsome, well mannered, charasmatic, attractive..endless adjectives to describe him..and his new clinic is superb, tastefully done up..doctors surely do earn loads of money..
wondering whether being a doctor was ever one of my ambitions when young, but of course..the outcome of not being hardworking enough, that's why i am studying real estate now..

and happy news..i am going 23 and i am still growing!! i just grew taller 1.5cam!!! whahaha!!! unbelievable..my doctor says that girls puberty ends at 22..hmm..hurry hurry i want grow abit more taller..

time to turn on my engines and be a nerd..shall plan to go school in the mornings to study and not laze and slack at home!!! anyone going school early to do work let me know..

Saturday, October 04, 2008

{ freed on 16:50

is there no privacy in life..whats with all the little secrecy..cant there even exist some little bit that is only known to me..

i hate the way you are treating me based on the way i am treating you..what kind of reason is that..its creep!! it used to be like that and now its is recurring..
the kind of thing that i want to be treated is something which you can't comprehend.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

{ freed on 02:15

tuesday night had wanted to do night cycling so much, not until the heavy rain that rained non stop till 6am..how did i know? well because rex, zhenrong, arthur and me were playing mahjong..and indeed it was a bad bad choice, because i lost money.. :( sobx
and so, my public holiday was spent sleeping through and not doing work until now.

after taking com med test, it was a super relief for my tiny brain..exhausted from all the memorizing and boy does it give me the feeling of after exams when walking out of mpsh..
had lunch and slept through till 6pm, then i showered and went out for dinner at this little shophouse at cairnhill-blue basil cafe

thursday..after which is friday and i cant wait for it to come..i need the weekend for sleep in and also have to find ways to motivate my brain to start doing all the work..especialy my dissertatin has yet to be touched on..which is very very bad! and more reports to be done for projects which are piling up..need to clear them all! conquer it!!

and yes..i wish i could be like bro..away on business trip in states..had he flew a week earlier during mid break..i would have bought a ticket and tag along..

i need a weekend gateaway soon!!! to bintan..phuket..bali..i want a massage to relax..a big pool to swim..