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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
{ freed on 17:16

suddenly feeling so empty and bored..for the past 2 mths i've been doing nth but going to ubi for driving lessons..now that i've graduated from there, got no other activities on hand..missing the fun times i had..sometimes recalling the moments made me smile from inside..mum thought i'm mad suddenly smiling to myself..haha..but this activity indeed made 2005 a year special for me..

just wondering whether is dad going to buy another car soon?

i've got friends encountering problems at ubi..the change of traffic light timing, causing only 1 car to be able to u-turn at a time..2 seconds only..so don't go over the stop line..crank course 26 is tricky..the road is uneven therefore the car will roll faster, remember to use ur brakes so that u'll be able to return the wheel in time before the nxt turn..similar for the parallel parkings located beside the slope..the road is uneven too, somehow the lot is smaller too..
hope this helps ur to pass..not sure if ur private instructors got share with u..

dad asked me what's the next thing i'm gonna learn..fly a plane? haha..i'm airsick..imagine flying halfway i take out a motion bag and start to puke into it..hehe..yucks..maybe gonna take up a foreign language..dad suggested chinese..hmm..remembering the chinese new yr celebration show earlier this year, the geomancer was saying that those born in the year of teh cow got to enrich themselves this year..true? well i went to learn driving..

this morning woke up early and followed mum to work..her company held a EGM meeting today with all the shareholders attending..weird and funny..many ah-mahs and ah-peks come..wondering they can understand what the chairman was discussing anot..some voiced out questions about the shareprice..up or down? hmm..they invested they "coffin buying money" into the share market? hehe..had to prepare drinks and refreshments..they seem to be attending a buffet rather than the meeting..cheapskate? well the papers ever reported about a person went to attend an EGM and he took home the lobster..the shell..woah..impressive eh..s'poreans that "yao gui"?

now waiting for time to pass before going to the club and gym with dad..i'll take the wheel, if he trusts me..but i was certified qualified by him last nite already..hehe..

k..i want to meet up with the clarinet gang "extinct"..my JC class gang..got loads of catching up to do..got to date them soon..


Monday, May 30, 2005
{ freed on 22:47

I'M SO HAPPY~~!! i passed my driving test on 1st attempt, with 10 demerit points..let's review..4 for safety checks at parking, 2 for inappropriate gear used, 2 for delay in moving off, 2 for wide turning..
lucky i wasn't tested on emergency brake..cos i can't stop within the stipulated distance..hehe..i cleared my circuit pretty fast..went to test route 4..

this morning actually started off bad..i couldn't sleep well last nite..then bladder weak kept going to the loo before i left home for ubi..nervous..when going for warm up, my test car 87 wasn't there, i was assigned 95..den had to call mr thum to drive the car back to the circuit, and he was teaching someone at tampines..lucky he rushed back and i had time for warm up..scare me!!

my car roll back on slope..lucky test time was ok..then the instructor alsop reminded me that i'm going to drive an old mna..that's the tester..so dun drive too fast..his heart wun be able to take it..hehe

the best part..when i exit the circuit this isiot honda worker jaywalk in front of me..lucky brake in time and he raised his hand up, so his fault lah, also on handphone..lucky me nt penalised..then when i returning back to school..that idiot same guy jaywalk again..argh!! think he recognised my car and this time he hurry run across..lucky him..if not if i fail..i'll strangle him!!

anyway i've passed..so happy..mum bought some food/snacks and delivered to ubi for me to give to my best 2 instructors..really appreciate all the help they gave me..but before i left din get to say bye to mr thum..he lent me his "wife" car and i passed my test..at least got to say bye to mr yue..he sms me and say the curry puffs will cause him to be heaty and no need to teach driving already..take MC..haha..shall go back one day to visit them..mayb tag along when daniel tk his test..we got a "date", cos i passed my driving..hehe..

always remember ur teacher's teachings..DRIVE SAFELY

this week gotta go mum's office to do some work and earn some bucks to sponsor my HK shopping spree..i shall drive them to work with the triangle on the car..1 year..

in total..i took 32 lessons..3200 minutes..10 demerit points..

I DID IT!!


Sunday, May 29, 2005
{ freed on 15:46

wads up? tmr i'm gonna take my driving test already, its been 2 mths since i started learning..did a test evaluation today, my instructor says that i accumulated less than 10 demerit points each for my circuit and road..that means less than 20 in total, so i've passed..he was strict with me so that shld be it..PASS..!! just don't commit silly careless mistakes and any immediate failure offences shld be good..be alert!!

hopefully or shall i say i'll have good news for my instructors tmr noon..

yesterday went to indochine waterfront at empress place for dinner, nice ambience, good food..but the bill was even better..haha..there's this bar nxt door, opium bar..looks good, mayb one day the gang can organise a get together there..

went suntec to get my eyebrows trimmed..also with the GSS going on..discounts everywhere, walked into tianpo jewellery with mum and got her a pair of pearl earrings..but i'm fair..dad will receive the same treatment either in terms of a meal or the same monetary value on an item he wants..mayb a new handfone..yupz..well the gift is for mum/dad day, birthday and x'mas..haha..abit cheapskate rite..but it's the thot that counts..but of cos not that stingy also lah..when their bdae and x'mas come then i get them other gifts agn..

hmm.not onli did i find out my real estate course is 4yr direct honours..also i will not be able to do maths minor..what the hell! at indochine dad was discussing my uni with bro..gosh..dad wants me to stay in the library all day to study..go to sch daily..attend all lectures..i'll be under their noses..worse come..dad will monitor me thru spycam, that is i'll have to bring the laptop everywhere i go and he will see me on his computer..haiz..weird family..but it was meant to be a crappy chat session..

now it's raining cats and dogs which is good..so that tmr will be fine weather and i'll be able to perform..wish me luck..


Friday, May 27, 2005
{ freed on 18:45

OK..i'm at mum's desk against, just waiting for time to past before meet dad at the car park to retrieve the car and head for dinner..my stomach's growling already..!! lunch was great with my "sis" and mum at raffles place..we had nasi padang followed by a hot cup of cafe hazelnut mocha at a christian cafe..i also bought a crisy peanut pancake back to office but it became soggy and i didn't eat it..gosh becoming a pig..need to control my intake before i start my eating spree in HK..was searching yahoo for some restaurants which we can visit tonite, but nth appetizing..

anyway, i bought my cross stitch cloth and i'll be able to start sewing for my fren's birthday as a gift..at least sth for me to entertain myself at nite..good news!! besides heading for HK, this morning dad just confirm that we're going to perth and i booked the tix online ready..the electronic tix have also been printed out..hehe..i'm so happy, therefore i shall treat him to a good father's day meal..
june 4-7:HONGKONG
july 14-18:PERTH

went to meet mum's personal banker at citibank earlier..this guy, kelvin was a nice guy..he asked me where i'm persuing my education..also he being a scholar, he gave me some good help on what i shld plan my future to be..the banking sector is booming but i just quitted from my UOL banking degree, also its useless lah..he's an engineer btw,which is sth he don't like, and he persued an additional degree in finance which is his passion..he got some contacts with aussie universities and even offered to help me look for lodging shld i proceed to aust to study..accompany me to the IDP aust study fair tmr too, he say he know the uni people who come down to promote and can help me liason with the uni..nice chap..but i still to persuade dad..1st real estate is a tough market to penetrate in s'pore bcos of the rigid property structure, 2nd it isn't really what i want to do..but since i'm accepted into nus, i doubt dad will let me go overseas to study..3rd its costly too, almost 30k per year..i want to do maths and statistics related stuffs, that's my passion!! but what career lies ahead..teacher..NOPE..what kelvin said made me think thru quite abit..he said don't do sth u hate and do sth that u don't hate..

imagine me all alone in aust..hmm..

well time to go get the car and head for dinner..


{ freed on 10:07

hmm..my trip to HK has been paid for, just short of a hotel confirmation only..last nite dad asked if want to go perth..yupz..SIA has a air tix promo again..last nite i was bz checking for flight schedules, and there were seats available for the day and time that we want..could be due to june hols being over..just sms dad to check his lecture schedules and tonite i shld be able to make bookings already..

ydae was talking on the fone with gaowei like after duno how long..we were bored that despite we were on the fone, we were disturbing each other on msn too..sending all the "winks"..afterwhich we decided to bomb jen also..haha..was planning to go back SRJC with him today, but i woke up late and also didn't report to work too..later after my bath got to go mum's office, then to raffles place to meet my "sister" for lunch, who's my mum's sister actually..that's my aunt..haha..last nite in the cab, mum was talking to her on the fone..chatting about my cousins mid year exams results..well both valerie and tim had half of their subjects flung and half passed..on the other hand, pamela..my uncle's daughter whom i tuition before..whole class flung their maths and had to get the principal to moderate the marks..well i once helped her got 1st in class for maths, with the rest of the class failing..anyway, i fired myself since then..mum asks me to coach her again, but i rejected..

i'm starting uni life from aug 2005..and guess wad!! i wun graduate till 2009..my course is a 4 year direct honours..well bro told mum, i told dad..and he says he wun be able to retire till 2010..haha..anyway i've gained some knowledge about banks and additional maths and stats formulas from my 1st year at SIM..wasted a year..gosh when i graduate i'll be 24..old liao..mum reminds me not to change school or course anymore..hehe..

well..got to bathe already..


Thursday, May 26, 2005
{ freed on 15:04

hi all, i'm sitting at mum's computer desk waiting for her boss to leave for the airport to catch a flight before we go to the travel agency to make payments for our trip to HK..whOOpi!! i'll be staying at the same hotel as yeans and will be able to spend time with her and her fren for 2 days before i head back for s'pore and she continue with her trip..waiting for all the fun at shopping and eating..me and mum..best of the best..no dad tagging along..i want to eat my roadside food, curry fishballs, smelly tofu with sweet sauce, yum cha, mango dessert..argh..i'm hungry..was discussing with mum which suitcase are we bringing, the huge or big or 2 small bags..she ask me am i buying alot instead..haha..well i just bring the whole tsim sha tsui back..hehe..went to the HK tourism board web and saw the new malls that are built in the outskirts..shall take a train ride down and shop there..remember i went there before but it wasn't that developed..also reminds me of the trip me and mum went to melbourne and we took the train out to the outskirts..must remember to bring my digicam..

well today my driving was kinda screwed up..was abit "kan cheong", hope that doesn't happen when i take my test..but gotta thank mr thum today for teaching me new things and spotting the road conditions of the test route for me..can impress the tester..haha..got to buck up this weekend and perfect my skills..pity saturday he wouldn't be teaching me cos he got meet the teacher's session for his child..anyway i've got sunday with him and he can do a dry run of the test with me..practise my u-turn on 3 lane road too..the car musn't go "snakey"..

well..my instructors and mum have confidence in me that i'll pass on 1st attempt..i shall use my "cow sense" not common sense and prove that i can and make them proud..don't think i'll be that bad lah..so far my circuit is ok..just got to go thru the motion checking and perform the safety checks, beware of road hazards..hope got some kind drivers that will give way when i do lane change..just like today, a nice lorry driver gave way to me..not that i cause him to slow down..hehe..thanks mr lorry..

gosh..mum's boss still in meeting, he better leave soon or he'll miss his flight..bon voyage!!


Tuesday, May 24, 2005
{ freed on 19:51

hmm..i'm so happy today, i went for driving and got my fav instructor and car..also i'll be using the same car for my remaining lessons and for my test too..so good..well mr thum says that i shld be able to pass..i trust him..cos he's strict..remember the time i got scolded horribly for my vertical parking..now i have also cleared my slope..less likelihood of roll backs..heng!! looks like going to the gym and trained on my bisceps did help me to pull the handbrake more firmly..haha..went to mum's office after that to do 1 round of delivery cos restuarants close at 2.30pm and wun open till 6pm again, but till then i'm off work already..also went to some tour agencies at people's park centre..i shld be able to kill 2 birds with 1 stone..go to bangkok and hongkong..woah 2 shopping paradises..well i've coem to an agreement with mum that she absorbs 40% of my expenses and me 60%..is that a good deal? hehe..but have yet to confirm dates yet, hopefully by tmr..

after months of eyeing this espirit sweater..finally i bought it today at 40% off..hehe..i'm lucky or what..controlled myself till today when it's finally on sale..hope to get better buys in HK..tomorrow will be another slack day..if not i shld be reporting to work again..but mum's boss is arnd so i've got difficulty going do deliveries with mum..shall see how again..

i've made a funny wish..if i pass my driving test, i shall reward myself by going for a hair rebond..haha..that day cut it and now all the curls are showing..can't stand it..
hmm..last nite well lying on the sofa..this giant moth flew into the living room..sent dad the insect terminator to whack it..again today at mum's office lift landing say a giant moth again..yucks..is it a sign?? where am i seeing it consecutively for 2 days..but mum says that its attracted to her cos she has been seeing moths for the past week..errie..eekish..swoosh go away..


Monday, May 23, 2005
{ freed on 11:31

long weekend..have been at home all day doin nth but eating and sleeping and watch tv..typical couch potatoe..well mum has been cooking for the past few days..
on saturday, dinner was 7 course/dishes including dessert..how to don't grow like a pig..i helped to cook..hehe..even dad who doesn't eat prawns ate my tempura prawn..haha..imagine that..we opened a bottle of white wine..late harvest 2004..sweet and pleasant..drink and merry and get drunk..hehe..helped me to slp well thou..
on sunday, we had steamboat..
today, mum cooked bak gu teh for breakfast..soaked "you tiao" in the soup was great..hehe..for the rest of today will be just slacking at home i guess..nth much to do..shopping? well better to wait for GSS..but espirit having 20% now..tempting eh..

i've gt 4 more lessons and 1 week before before my driving test..


Saturday, May 21, 2005
{ freed on 10:06

yesterday was a great day..gym was fun, especially with all the lame and funny stuffs that shu and i created..like a machine to train strength for pulling and release handbrakes..stepping of clutch pedals..biceps and hamstrings..wadever muscles related..haha..bcos of ydae's workout..last nite i was tire out and sleep well..been waking up in the middle of the night for the past week..however, yesterday was upsetting too..was supposed to meet the gang for chit chat at nite but due to unforeseen circumstances or foreseen to me, it was cancelled at the last minute..its always the case..

anyway i'm supposed to be at work now, but i'm at home watching tv..hehe..mayb later den meet mum to shop for tonite's dinner menu..steamboat lok lok..hehe..i've been a pest to dad, bugging him for "my car"..but it seems to be useless..he didn't give it a chance of survival..haiz..shall drag him go for test drive tomorrow..also COE fell!!btw my instructor was great, he had the mechanic to adjust his car's handbrake for me already so that when i take my test..my car wouldn't roll back on the slope.whOOpi..yesterday i used back my fav car, but was and encik that coached me..almost met with accident on the road b'cos of a taxi suddenly filter out..irritants..however, happy too..cos i finally saw my other fav instructor at the circuit, thot he vanished..he was in his car, and we spotted each other while queuing for parallel parking..funny moment..well i'm gald i've had 2 great instructors..double as my frens too..made my learning experience fun and enjoyable..hope i pass on 1st attempt and can thank them for their coaching..smiles :)

dad has cancelled my trip to perth b'cos of the aussie airport tax which costs $219..then now its only me and mum planning to go hongkong alone..dad says chiangmai or taiwan..but he always only talk and no action..told him when he book already and everything is confirmed then tell me..he's always like that..next he'll say he got lectures and classes to teach and can't go again..i'm tired..haiz..i've got 2 workaholic parents..save me..


Thursday, May 19, 2005
{ freed on 23:22

1 of my longest dinner, 3hours..juz got home..was invited by mum's collegue for food tasting at paddyfields at anchorpoint, thai crusine..well we ate there before and it was great, but somehow we suffered diabetes tonite..funnily most of the dishes tasted sweet and i mean same level of sweetness..hehe..but nice food..ate and laughed..pretty fun..the best part we were actually busted..they noticed us and took precaution..chey!! hoping for more of such foodhunts but afterwhich got to hit the gym, that's wad i'm going to do tmr..got a date with shu already..

that day i walked the s'pore river with mum..today we had a stroll at the botanic gardens..had to send an award to a restuarant located inside..tall trees, nice flowers, butterflies, water..nice environment..in fact i think it's my 1st time visiting the botanic gardens..have yet to see our national flower, vanda miss joaquim..this job is getting fun..visiting, touring, tasting s'pore..hehe

tomorrow taking a break from work..shall just concentrate on driving and whack the gym..it will be a "lydia" day..hehe..


Tuesday, May 17, 2005
{ freed on 18:30

OOPs..i'm using mum's computer at her desk for my own private use..hehe..just done with today's despatch despite the bad weather..went to ritz, fullerton, shenton way..was nice walking down the esplanade by the river with mum, wads more its raining and we shared an umbrella..romantic? hehe..also on the way, we found some good food, chix pie from M hotel..fried wanton at tiong bahru..yummy, need to replenish energy after all that walking round town..more to go tomorrow since i've got no driving and will start work from morning..

sunny..thunderstorm..drive halfway can't see where i'm going, vision blurred..and i was taught by the instructor who's car is abit crank..no tachometer..siao man..steering wheel also abit queer, make my parking got prob, can't decide where's my half-lock and full-lock..haiz..why like that..i only left 1 week before my test..i want to pass leh!!

i want to fly!! waiting for dad to call the travel agents..tomorrow 18th may, 2 datelines for dad..the last day to book SIA cheap airfares, also COE price will be announces..hope it does increase, cos it just fell..hehe..

well now i'm just waiting for time to pass..get a ride from dad whose office is upstairs and head home for dinner and watch our new vcd that i just buy whilst working..meet the fockers..hahah


Monday, May 16, 2005
{ freed on 22:17

help!! after 1 week of break from driving lessons, resumed today..piangz, everything was horrid..parking and slope was chaotic..this can't carry on, 2 more weeks to my test..

i just went for a swim at the club, shiok man..especially after all the island hopping i did today from delivering the awards to restaurants..did orchard area today..from hilton hotel down to s'pore mandarin where i saw the south africa's president entourage..so grand, with all the police escort..anyway i shall pop by the club again..b'cos the set meals are yummy..hehe..also more delivering to do this week..i've got weird out of the way places to go..botanic gardens, holland village, orchard again, shenton way, fullerton..in need for leg massage..


Sunday, May 15, 2005
{ freed on 15:28

thunder, lightning, flash bangs..last nite's storm was horrid man. the lightning flashes made my room so bright and scary that i hid under my blanket..hehe..this morning when i wok up i got a shock..my house gate was wide open..thief? nehz..just that bro last nite supposedly had closed the gate but it somehow didn't shut. lucky nth was stolen from the garden and our car was still in the porch..hehe..yesterday rain like dunno wad, today so hot and scorching..freakish weather..just like our mood swings..

anyway, i've started work as a despatch gal for mum's company..a weird day to start eh, saturday..anyway i'm getting paid, don't care..tomorrow will resume work after driving..hoping that i wun blunder, cos i had a nitemare 2 nites ago about my driving skills..totally screwed up..wonder how the car could reverse when it was in 1st gear..puzzled!! tomorrow back to circuit, a place so familiar yet so foreign now..hehe..all the courses, tomorrow got to brush up my skills..i'm excited!!

read a friend's blog, describing abt her friendship with her ex..i also get confused at times..its quite hard to remain as friends after a break up..its like 1 party may avoid thou both have agreed to remain as frens..if not shld u suddenly contact him, he'll wonder whether ur contacting him cos ur bored..the worst..u think that u have a chance of reconciling but it bursts..how about let nature take its course..don't wanna think about it..i like my life as it is now..remembering that i've got a bet with jenny..shangri-la..

i'm minds only got a few stuffs on hand..pass my driving and hopefully got a car to drive..i've been accepted by nus..going to perth this june, maybe hongkong too..how abt u?


Friday, May 13, 2005
{ freed on 21:58

i'm drunk!! just had dinner with bro and his gf, sometimes just find and feel its so difficult to eat with them, the difference in taste..blah.i'm so bloated and so drunk now, drunk wine..boy do i see stars..not that bad after all.
finally i decided to go cut my hair today. satisfied with the new look!! also i got myself a new pair of earrings..hehe..

tomorrow i'll be starting work for mum, weird day to start eh..saturday.
well i just got to travel round the island delivering awards to the restuarants that were being featured in the restaurant guide.

monday, i'll be starting my driving lessons again, hope i don't screw up. that day at home helped dad reverse the car and i forgot to release the handbrake..haha..7 lessons laft before i take my test, hope i pass man. but don't bother to think about a new car. fickle minded dad and my "left retarded" brain that just don't seem to be able to satisfy him. don't care about him ready, i'm tired..

anyway..i didn't get any presents from bro..except xiaodingdang..which he eats most of it..whatever!!!


Thursday, May 12, 2005
{ freed on 10:11

i had a gd sleep last nite..was tired from all the swimming i had. FUN part, i had the whole pool to myself..haha..swam a total of 20 laps, hungry and ate a subway sandwich. OOPS..should that be the case? anyway never knew that SRC's pool was fun to swim in.

happened to slack in my giant beanbag, flipped thru my photo albums..all the gd times and memories of my JC days, the carefree moments, smiles and laughter..most of all the gang! came across a pic, starting thinking of the past.."why did it all have to end..why hadn't i fight for it?"

a few more minutes bro's flight will depart HK and arrive in changi at 1420. will be goin to fetch him, purpose to get my presents and munchies..my fav xiaodingdang, the japanese pancake with redbean or chestnut filling..yummy..
anyway..saw the newspaper today reporting abt people who hog onto places for all 3 universities and thus not allowing those on waiting list to get a place.IDIOTS ..that's what happened to me last yr, put on waiting list twice, appeal and no use, ended up at SIM. lucky this yr the letter came pretty fast, if not i don't know if i'm supposed to carry on with 2nd yr at SIM or go abroad. now i'm going to remain in s'pore..home sweet home!!!


Wednesday, May 11, 2005
brand new start { freed on 10:34

welcomes..remember i used to have a blog, lydear_me.blogspot.subsequently i got mad and fed up with all the publishing and all, takes a super long time. DELETED IT!!! then i moved over and started another one at friendster. again i always get hang while trying to load it, still back to square one.

now that i'm school-less, exam-less..mum asking me to go to her office and be a despatch girl, cool eh! i can earn some bucks for my holidays, subsidise my shopping and eating sprees. bro coming back from hongkong tmr, can u believe it from sunday till yesterday he never sms-ed me..except he needed a favour last nite, pathetic..what's more he suan me about all the good buys over there, but no share of mine. however bad weather and storms there. lucky he's safe and sound.

this week i've been like a mountain tortoise at home, slacking. should the skies be bright and clear later, shall go to the club and gym, followed by going for a haircut. whole day online, surfing nus website and finding out about what my course has to offer to me.

hmm..to all that are having their exams at EXPO now..jiayou and all the best. to me..best of luck at slacking. ciaoz