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Thursday, March 30, 2006

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3 more weeks to exams..how depressing can that be..all the work that needs to be done.all the catching up...gosh...
finance presentation was a funny thing...the examiner was so not interested in wadeva we presented..more on she wanted to teach us the "real world" stuffs...which is good..i'm not complaining...anyway our grp just needed to show the 1st, middle n last slide..haha..5 mins..cool...the shortest that we ever had..

now i got many webcasts on hand that i need to watch..tutorials to clear...hmm..gonna sleep late again..getting heaty and all..pain in the ass..hmm..

happy stuffs..yesterday is our 8th month..hehe..so long le...hehe..nth interesting..no more wuguis to my collection..lao fu lao qi...hmm..nt to good..pamper me abit le..haha...
tmr will be his IFG soccer finals..hehe..GOAL~~~

had some therapy today..washed my car when i got home..just when i wiped it dry...the skies started to cry..rain..and i mean heavy rain..haiz...anyway i like to give my car a good scrub...seeing it bright n shiny makes me happy...

past few days have been goin to ta bao my dinner home...such a poor kid...no dinner for me..hmm..but then again..not eating much yet i'm putting on weight..argh..how come le..water retention ah? haha..cant be..not drinking enuf water at all...leg cramps..
cant wait to go swimming nxt week...play water time..hehe...

anyway...life has been pretty good so far...should be meeting erin n donut soon..i hope..
but i noe i'm gonna meet the dentist this saturday..haha..

1st april..family AGM...hehe...kinda cool...waiting to hear pete's verdict on the car...will it be in my favour..lets see..

okie..got to do work..then can watch my flower show later..

p/s anybody interested in ordering A&F clothes online???

Saturday, March 25, 2006

{ freed on 15:43

this weekend...doesnt feel like one...
woke up thinking that i've got lecture and need to rush to school..cant even have a peaceful sleep...been buried by work..finally law assignment completed n submitted...now is finance..monday got presentation and a test..how to complete so many things...still got the bloody handout to do...argh...

organs failing...now having headache..intestine twisted...oh no..oh yesh..pain in my ass again..due to many late nites...bro says that i am lousy..not used to uni life yet..all the staying up and wadever...hmmm..need a swimming float to sit on...seems to be worst than the last..gosh...

that day...mum asked me if i am comfortable with what i am doin now..studying uni...BRE...hmm..well i never liked studying..not my forte..wads more its not mathematics related..anyway..she said dad shld have let me go australia and study previously...or go learn baking..mayb i'll do that in 3 yrs time when i graduate..haha
that same nite..watched a HK drama..the little sis called all her brothers home n made an announcement..she quit school..woah..cos she went into a faculty she din wan..cos others dun wan her..she gt no interest in studying too...mum says that girl's just like me..
mum n bro dared me to tell dad i want to quit school..

me: pete i want quit school
dad: den wad do u want to do
me: well i can slack n be a free loader at home and leave on ur cpf
dad: cpf oso will have no $
me: nvm we sell this hse den go stay at melville..got $ den
dad: well u decide...its a fine line between smart n idiotic

end of conversation.....

feeling rather stupid nowadays..from the day i stopped maths..brain gt retarded...
friends of mine who used to perform lower then me have all overtaken me..going better uni courses...doing better overseas..more opportunities..
bro says its just me...not fitting into s'pore education system...hmph...
maybe..after all i challenged the system b4..taking O's with exactly 6 subjects...

zombified....

well..i just want to leave this stressful place..too competitive for me...

i choose idiotic...

Friday, March 17, 2006

{ freed on 23:13

life hasnt improved much..starting to doubt whats my existence in this world..bring joy n happiness n laughter to the people arnd me or am i bringing them hurt, sadness, tears....?

at the age of 20 already..being indecisive n fickle minded..i dunno wad exactly do i want in my life..wad i wanna do with my life...wad i wan the people arnd to treat or do for me..neither do i noe how i wanna treat them..
it maybe good, healthy from my point of view but not to them or vice versa..
how to rule my life?
somebody teach me..show me enlightenment....
think i gotta be blind..at heart...

anyway i do wanna thank him for everthing that he has ever done for me and the effort he put in to make things work out..although sometimes i'm just that bad catalyst that spoils everything..all the sweet times...will be remembered..
how to carry things on..
do u say u dont understand someone or do u say u have misunderstood instead...
wads the difference?
pretty big i'll say...
everybody sees things differently..no 2 persons view them similarly...even so..
there will still be slight misinterpretations...

i remember my sec school principal use to say that we have to listen with our eyes...
that is give the speaker attention..
am i doing that..seems not..cos my eyes are always wandering looking elsewhere but that pair of eyes...
when i was a baby infant..my relatives say my eyes keep looking around..n said i'm a kay-poh baby...so is that trait in me still...
leopard never changes its spots...

had a fulfilling dinner tonight..thank u...

thank bro...let him take the car out to pak tor..me use public transport..n my ez link card cant scan..so paid full fare..came home..he was nice to buy me carls jr..thinking i din go out n have no dinner...

goin ECP wash car tmr..
past few nites still up till 4plus...doin my law tut..one nite on qn..how productive can i get..
jiayou..next few days no sleep liao...

Thursday, March 16, 2006

{ freed on 19:01

today's backward agenda:

at 4pm i left school and headed for SRC to swim..had many thots while in the water..

~aint it nice if all worries can ripple away like ripples in the water when u simply touch the water surface with ur pinkie..or kick it all away...
~in the water..u hear no one else's breathing and heartbeat except ur own...
~the water simply brainwashes u..forgetting about anything and everything else except trying and struggling to finish up ur laps...
~some swim the length and some swim the breadth..some take the long route and others do it the short and simple way...however...there are bound to be clashes...no matter wad one has to give way to the other so that ur path will be cleared and can proceed..
~i started swimming alone..many come and join me..had to find a space for myself to breathe and swim..kept on changing lanes..many left..i was once again alone in the pool till the very end...when i left others joined in...
~in our life..there are passers by and there are those who remain and stay on and accompany till the very end..everybody comes and leaves this world alone..
~some move at a faster pace than others..making it hard to catch up..unless one slows down and waits...

i tried my best to break my record..forced myself to complete additional 10laps...purpose..to prove that i can do things which i couldnt in the past..to be independent in whatever i do..nothing or nobody can influence in your decisions...u live the way u want ur life to be...

had finance project meeting...everything finally got started..had law lecture...managed to catch bits n pieces...
had a scrumptious lunch with the SSB gang, that is not some singapore studies biz module..but our very own scandalous san ba (38) gang..been a long time since we all unite and dominate the whole walkway...went to biz for lunch...shared 20 beijing dumplings...cracked some lame jokes..was great to have those girls...

didnt sleep well last nite...or did i even sleep? forced myself to sleep perhaps...
stressed, lethargic, frustrated, short tempered..whatever kind of moods u can think of..guess i'm suffering from them all..how about depression...
tonnes and loads of work to complete...cant slack..dun wanna be distracted..time for a break alone...
SSB's CAP target...4.2!!! jiayou...i'm motivated for monetary incentives...haha...
want to vent my frustration thru healthy lifestyle..shld engage in workouts..but i doubt so in food..been super unhealthy..no fruits n veggies = not lydia...
want to go jog at nite..bro has been doing that...
need not sleep for the whole week already...

looking forward to car wash this saturday morning with the girls...

somethings are better left unsaid at times..know when is best to remain silent and let things just die down and cool off...
is it hard to understand the person closest to u...
is it the case that the closer u are to someone..ur level of patience n tolerence is lower..shorter...
is it the little things in life that makes one life happier...
is being happy go lucky a trait..makes ur life simplier..
who knows what is best..ownself..or it is the chinese saying whereby onlookers see things better than those in the situation...
when is the correct time to pull the string and tighten...and when is it right to release and let loose..
what is love...

all the nitty gritty in life is frustrating right..what u deem to the correct may seem to be wrong to another..who can say what's right and what is wrong..there is always a grey area..how to resolve...

anyway...its just me myself & i....

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

{ freed on 00:38

hungry boy & his phad thai noodles

{ freed on 00:36

{ freed on 00:11

argh..i slpt at 5am this morning and had lesson at 12pm..and only end school at 9pm lah...
had to wait for him to complete the essay..watched 2 soccer matches..chinese movie..variety show..and heard a funny song called the mao mao song...is some song about the different hair on a human body..haha...
today saved by a packet of beehoon goreng ikan billis for dinner!!!

am feeling tired and like my soul is missing..cant seem to concentrate and do anything rite..
projects gonna be due soon..still no headstart..almost wanted to report about a team member not doin work...luckily appeared today...
thot i was a pro at finance..who noes..last minute had some careless calculations..
gonna be a lawyer this week..in order to do up my law assignment...

just wanna be out of singapore permanently..how about goin to zhejiang china for summer exchange programme...or another trip to bangkok..or the best shopping city...hongkong..where i can eat my curry fishballs...

congrats to my sec sch classmate...gonna get married nxt mth..she actually invited me to her wedding dinner..shocking..but i cant go..too near exams already...

last friday went to esplanade for dinner..al fresco..nth beats having a 5 course meal after skipping whole day's of food..soup, calamari, portobello mushroom, seafood pizza, lime margarita, tiramisu to end it all...yummyfied..tummy was expanded...
so happening..after a yr..having bumped into jasper..hehe...so qiao..singapore can be said to be pretty small lah...

just now..my comp hung.luckily i have my bro to rescue it for me..unlike those who say leave it till tmr..no sense of urgency....hmph!!!

oh yah..have yet to post pictures in a long long time...
a picture speaks a thousand words....

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

{ freed on 22:19

time to report my recent doings..
okie..i just sneaked out of singapore and went to bangkok in the midst of the semester..seems to be my usual behaviour..haha..
was hardworking..be it in terms of shopping or how about bringing along your law tutorial and solving the questions at night in the hotel...whaha..
was a good trip..ate alot..walked alot..shopped alot of cos...!!!
had to rush straight from changi airport to school for law tutorial...haha..how cool can that be..had no flight back on sunday night..hehe

now its the time to pia again after the short break..wished it could be longer...how about no need to study at all..haha..
all projects and tests gonna be due soon..no head start yet...hmm..

oh yesh..sth interesting..i got chosen to do some computer survey experiment...haha..earned 7 bucks..hehe...however dear earned 9 bucks..guess he did it more thorough then me..hehe

okie..time to watch webcast...