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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

{ freed on 15:49

another free day from school..hehe..
surprisingly mum stayed home today to bake but its because she's not feeling well..kinda guilty that i hafnt been helping her much in the baking..except i only spend time in the kitchen talking to her..thinking of the past does bring back fond memories..
talking about past chinese new years..thought of the times when granny used to open gua zi for us and then give it to us in a bag..so that we need not bite it to open the shell..then again..her house doesnt have the nut cracker..so we used to say that she used her mouth..and the gua zi shld be coated with her saliva..but actually..mum says she hammers it with the motar..hmm..and the ikan billis that were given to use were beheaded..and boneless..so sweet..and the aroma of the kopi o that she makes..but now all these are just memories..and how she used to pinch my face every cny if i dont wear red..1st cny without her..so many things seem so different..and had i not re-read my past blog entries..it didnt occur to me take granny was sick for 2 years..so many things at times we just dont cherish and were taken for granted..

on the happier side..she has been freed..

oh..so fast the 1st month of 2008 is gonna come to an end..time really does fly..
this year..i've got 2 decades of friendship..extinct gang...kevin and ivan..hard to believe that i 1st knew them at tuition and yet still in contact..and we are gonna visit our tutor during cny..
and well 6 degrees of friendship..thru tom..edle hears abt me and now we are contacting each other thru facebook..a friend whom i truely marvel at..and also meeting joel in techno for drink the other day..laughing at our innocent secondary school days..the times when we went out to study for Os..
kinda think..if certain things hadnt happened..these other things might not haf happened..so its kinda interesting..opening another part of my life for all these matters..eventually the hermit has to come out of the shell..

yesterday..i started my drinking spree again..haha..i had margaritas..kiwi and strawberry..not a mix..but 2 glasses..haha..at home..i shall drown in my honey choya..sweet..:)

hmm..just another hour or so..mum will close the bakery for the day..and we are going orchard to shop..haha..why wouldnt i go..shes gonna pay for my shopping..haha..shall just hunt for a bag..mayb a watch..haha..and see what can get for her too..

Sunday, January 27, 2008

{ freed on 13:52

this weekend..or rather the super long weekend cos there was no school for friday..hehe..
many things happened..1st i went to see doctor..so far my condition is ok..just need to monitor for next 6mths..so i canbe at ease for the time being..till the time comes..then..went to see psychologist for the 1st time..she says i got the mind of a old granny at the age of 22..i was taught hw to self hypnotise to help me to sleep at nite..cure my insonmia..then got some medication..but dun worry i am not cranky yet..haha..the session was interesting..or rather the diagnose method is different from the usual...drawing..talking..sleeping..haha..

if i got no solutions to certain matters then i shouldnt be bothered by it..i have my own life to lead and i shouldnt be playing the role of a pillar for other people's life..my happiness is my own..so i got to be happy in whatever i do..and not for others..
my life..shouldnt be having a mask worn all the time..i shouldnt be burden and have to free myself from all these..

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

{ freed on 12:23

roars..today is a sunny day..hopefully it remains for a little while longer..then i can enjoy the sun while i swim..but up till now i am still slacking at home..

last nite baked cookies till 1am..woke up late..and now i am slacking..just surfing the net..my TV accompanying me..reading other people's blogs and found out that many of my friends are on SEP....in USA...roars..and now chatting with my new found "hand"..hongjie..sobx..kinda regretting not going over to berkeley..roars roars..bad move made? but then again whats urs will be urs and whats not meant will never be meant to be..so mayb this is just how my life is meant to be..

hmm..into 2nd week of school..a 2 day week..aint life slacking..for now..

Monday, January 21, 2008

{ freed on 00:21

ohh..1st week of sch has past..isnt something really fantastic especially with all the knowing of the projects pouring in and whats to be done for the rest of the semester..1st lecture at the biz fac..nt bad lah..but the expectations are rather demanding..hmm..not my cup of tea...
then also..the career talks aint really making me feel like stepping out of school and going to the CBD to work..

hmm saturday..went to esplanade to watch musical..beauty world!!! CHA CHA CHA..thats the hip part of the show..not bad..nice music..especially the classic...IIIIIVVVVYYYY...hehe..this is confirm better than the caberet that i watch last year..now looking forward to dim sum dollies..this year shall learn to be more cultured...whaha..than after that went to eat korean bbq..not bad..just slightly high priced...
today..went to ikea..hoping to buy a couch for granny to watch tv and rest in..but like the height not suitable..in the end buy 2 plastic boxes for dad and me to keep our winter clothings..and 2 new mugs for me and bro to put toothbrush..haha cos the old one is starting to grow mould..hehe

then dinner was pen cai..dad's newest creation..experimenting for CNY..and gaining feedback from us..so thats his contribution to reunion dinner at granny's this year..

and i am so proud of mummy..she created macadamia nut cookies for sale this year..smell good..taste yummy..usually we sell cashew nut cookie but cos afew days ago uncle just gave us a bag of macadamia for roasting..hmm..so this few days i shall be abit more hardworking and help her to bake since i had been a shake leg boss so far..hehe..and since my mood is back..i shall actively participate..

well well..got to figure out what i exactly want to achieve this year..year after year..am i gaining anything..or losing more..is there a trade off..
well..i shall start to work out my business proposal..be my own boss..

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

{ freed on 13:27

konichiwa!!!

yupx..i am back from osaka...

feeling abit lazy to upload pics here..but if u want see more can go to my facebook lah..haha..just a few here to show that i been to japan..hehe...

the famous hello kitty... :)

i declare osaka my 3rd hometown..simply like there..the weather..the people..the culture..ohh..so much to see and learn of...the air is super fresh and i dare say that japan is so much cleaner than spore if u think that spore is already generally cleaner than most cities..hehe..

the people are so polite and ohh..the service is ichiban!!! kinda motivated to learn japanese so that i can go to japan more often..

seen many things this trip..but simply too much to pen down in words..only those whom i spoke to shall benefit..haha..the rest..just see pics and enjoy lah..haha..

surprisingly..the sales there is great and i come back with a good harvest..hehe!!!

and many yummy food too..

luckily i hadnt grown fatter much...hehe..from the yummy ramian..xiaodingdang...crepes..fish pancake..ohh...i am beginning to drool again..oh yesh..not forgetting my chestnut cake..strawberry shortcake..mochi..

hmm..i want go back to japan again!!!

okay!! enough of touring and playing..semester has began and hmm..not such a easy and relax life this sem i guess..

yesterday was a super long day..talks at 11am..and class supposingly ends at 9pm..but with that module placed last..it shld be officially 8pm lah..haha..

so long hadnt held a pen and gosh..handwriting is terrible..horrible...

today is just me alone at home..kinda trying hard to imagine my life in USA now..hmm..abit hard thou..anyway the sun seems bright and good today..mayb shall just go to the pool for a swim now..thou it has been a long itme since i last done that..hehe..

shall update more again when i freer :)

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

{ freed on 01:34

by right..in another 5 hours i should be on my way to the airport to catch my flight to san francisco for my exchange at berkeley..
now i am just waiting for wednesdays 110am whereby i will be catching a flight to osaka instead..

suddenly do feel the regret that i am no longer going to berkeley..but however there are many other things that i have to cope with here now rather than that..going overseas to study can wait for awhile longer..maybe till i graduate from nus..

i was thinking..i am hoping that the doctor will either tell me there is something wrong or totally nothing wrong..rather than i am like on a chopping board now..dont know whether there is something or nothing wrong..and not that he is not sure of what is wrong too..all the question marks..?????? all the sleepless nights..guess i am rather dependent on the pills to help me sleep at night..otherwise i will be awake and awaken many times throughout my sleep..

just now..went to east coast to have chili crab and pepper crab with ronald, rex, buddy, sera, arthur...fancy having chili crabs before ron heads for shanghai..haha..then we had dessert at hongkong cafe..and played a new game that sera taught us..rather confusing but interesting..and the deck of cards are rather cool..hmm..only the few of us will know whats on it..whahaha..something sexy lah..
suddenly so many people will be going abroad..just saw my msn and my friend is in shanghai for internship till june..hmm..and that day new year's day i just saw her and so fast she is 1000 miles away le..

haiz..all the modules are giving me a headache..
cant decide what to take..

my luggage is packed..except some last minute stuffs tmr then squeeze in..
planning my shopping list..
snacks and snacks..
and aim to take many fotos..since it has been 10years since i went to japan..
hopefully i dont get lost from the underground shopping and the messy train lines..
and yesh..its winter new year for me!!!!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

{ freed on 21:27

1st week of 2008 is going to past soon...how fast time flies..
this 1st week can be said to be enriching or can be said to be wasted..

well SEC finally have a gathering..full force..almost there at elna's belated 21st chalet..and finally got to play mahjong ..last touched since rexson went to korea..and i lost the most..sobx...think i got no gamblers luck..

planning of timetable..2 day week so far..with nite lectures as usual..
and finally settling and tying up the loose ends of my withdrawal from berkeley..kinda saddening..but think my health and my body isnt in the correct state to be there..and having to abandon hongjie..but i have changed my flight ticket and i will be going USA in may after exams to play instead..then i shall visit him..
instead..now i am going to osaka..eat and shop..enjoy my winter..need a break from everything..have to clear my mind before i see the doctor for my consuelling session..

beginning the year by seeing a doctor is not something good..because you will be worrying thru out the year..but had i not had to go overseas for study i wun have push forward my check up and find out of my problems..which saddening..had worsen..and doubtful..

fruitful..i have began my pineapple tart business again..4th year..hopefully this year what i earn will be able to cover my expenses in japan..
following which i got USA..taiwan..chiangmai..

new year..new hairstyle..getting shorter..now i got a square mob..hehe..

alritey..i shall swim and run and exercise to waste all my energy so that i wun think of nonsense..and wun suffer from insonmia anymore..so calling all my khakis..jio me go swim and run and gym.. :)

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

{ freed on 12:14

the 1st day of 2008...

came back from mel's hse at 3am..tried to sleep but kinda suffered my insonmia..
had to eat lunch buffet with granny and all..went to shangri la..woah..surprising after that at the carpark i bummed into lixin..hmm..so long never see that girl...
at lunch..just chats about past year with aunts and uncle..with family around..its always enjoyable..

receiving well wishes from frens...having a blessed year ahead...

lunch was good..but having eaten so much..new year resolution..to lose weight..hehehe

not bad..finally i managed to watch a movie..went to vivo after lunch..watched national treasure..interesting show..and i found a new hang out place for good food and beer..but lunch was to heavy..so i couldnt really eat much of dinner..then again..i can always go there again..
hmm..when i went to vivo..i didnt intend to shop..but yet..i saw many things that i am tempted to buy..hmm..a top..a bag..hmm..more furnishing for my car..haha..but my other new year resolution is to save money..so how..? contradicting!!!
unless the next few nites i cant sleep then mayb i will go vivo and buy those stuffs lah.haha
also nid to go to ikea..get some furniture...hehe..decorate my room for CNY..and since i will be hanging around this year..at home..

many think that i am silly with that decision..but i am happier..and my family is happier..especially pete...hhaha..he is still smiling..enjoying my company..so that is good lah..
i also just got confirmation from school that i have successfully withdrawn..so all is well once again..

yeah!!!
a better year ahead..
a brand new start!!!