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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

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MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!
hope that everyone had a great celebration..

for me..well i did have a great time with you..shop..eat..desserts..friendly chats..
maybe until the nite when i spoilt everything that made u have regrets going out with me..
anyway..i thank you for taking time off to spend christmas with me..
glad u like the gift..

i am having regrets..i am a disappointment..
why? in the 1st place did i go apply for such a dumb thing..why had i been so stubborn..
now i dont want it anymore..for not only had my miracle not happen..nor did i have a magical xmas..santa thinks i have been a naughty girl..
i got no courage at all to face the whole thing myself..
i just want it to be cancelled..i dun wan to go anymore..
i am an itchy backside girl..

you were the reason that i lived..
at the end of the day..its the end..
what i want would not come..
i just have to live and accept reality..the harsh world..
since thats my only option..then i just have to live with that..
for the future is no longer the same anymore..
the support is no longer there..
i can only hate myself for what has happened..
yesh i am a disappointment to you..
i admit..
i am a coward..

so what has many envied..i rather not have it..
for having it..i paid a high price..
the one that i had was priceless..
now i am worthless..
a blank sheet of paper..

there are bound to be regrets in life..but this regret is far too huge..
time may heal all wounds..but how long will it be..
not at this instant..not for the past month..
neither for the next 14 days..
its either this or that..
at the end of it..i should just live with my choice and not listened to others from the start..

i am a mess!