gosh i am beginning to dread my life or lifestyle that i have been experiencing over the past month..
feeling super hurtful and painful when i walk arnd town alone and seeing those people arnd me..sighs..
today early morning 9am was dragged out of bed to have breakfast with charles..did some catching up and also we took a wrong turn so we went for a car spin..haha..
then felt sleepy came home to nap before going to find ms eyeball..yirong..met during her break and had a small chat..then with no other activities..bought dinner home and from then..staying home till now..just me in the living room and hear the rain pitter patter..
kinda a pathetic sight..
hopefully mondays cooking session would be better..with the girls..
the past few days..everywhere that i went alone just had the feeling of the time of doubles..
1st was at somerset's coffee club..then to cineleisure..
then going to raffles city and standing at the atrium in blank..
today to old airport rd for breakfast..
somehow i wish that santa would give me a forgetful or memory loss pill..then i would not be living so painfully since santa doesnt give me any happiness anymore..
its bad to be experiencing all these memories..its tired to tear and not to smile given that to frown uses more muscles..
all these happenings are draining me..what i want is so far away from me..since i cant get close to it..maybe its time for me to start to run away from it..since facing it is so difficult and believing in it is so hard..
must i drag myself till the day i fly off..