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Monday, October 29, 2007
{ freed on 02:24

SHIT JUST HAPPENS!!!

sick and tired of doing all the things and at the end of the day,everything is back to square ONE..then what is the purpose of making changes....

i am not a SUPERWOMAN for goodness sake...how much work can i do within a night..spending the whole weekend till the wee hours doing nth but just repeating over and over trying to make the point across yet it just gets rebound and rebound time and time again..so whats the use of me opening my mouth and explaining..since it cant be understooded then i guess there is simply nothing left fo rme to do..but simply to act stupid and blur and not want to do anymore..the simpliest is ignorance is bliss..so u will never have to do much cos u dont know anything mah..that shall be my motto of life from this time onwards till i come across another motto..no more....

so i shall just be that goldfish in the fishbowl that waits to be fed rather then me feeding others when i dont see what reward is there..the other just gets fatter based on my resources..unfair..so i shall be self fish...a fish on my own...never believe in being generous, because someday there will come a point that others are just sponging on you...so why not just start by sponging on others instead...a goldfish originally comes from an aquarium's tank then to a small fish bowl..so ur world is just like that..so if someday the fishbowl topples, the fish will just simply lie on the round struggling till it finally dies..why cant the fish just be thrown into big sea...why capture it...
i choose to be a fish that is kept in the tank but yet at the same time the freedom to explore the vast seas...

dont understand what am i talking..then just dont bother lah...how often can u get 2 minds that think alike..hardly..impossible...extinct...

in order to survive..dont put your trust 100% in others....dont depend on others solely..there will come a time that even if u are at the dead end you also dont know...why???because all along u have been following blindly...no sense of direction...not being street smart at all...
to be street smart...hmm..its an art that is to be mastered...

so many grievances!!! probably..when does somemore ever not hear me grumble..hardly...well simply i am stubborn and i have no liking in heeding others advice..why? got a brain so ownself think lor..listen all..filter some...absorb some...i am strong headed...i dont care...
simply...i feel damn BU SHUANG!!!

there is this threshold level that when u can no longer absorb anymore nonsense...u will just shut off...
well i am now at that point...the point whereby i will just begin to hate life...hate everything...nothing just goes correct...everything is being messed up..i am pissed..i dont understand many things..why does it just happen in that way..what is the difference..how am i different...never could understand why...

i was previously at this stage..now history is repeating..but i am sure that this time around i will be that easily satisfied...it just dont make any sense to me at all..

dont bother to understand me..for none will ever..except those dear to me..my family..cos only them will support and join me...at this moment..u just need people of same mind to support you and when there is this mass thing...the feeling is just so great..the same kind of attitude at looking at matters..

the world is round..the world is always rotating...
dont bother to join me..cos nobody ever can...

when i am out of here..that will be the time...