this weekend...doesnt feel like one...
woke up thinking that i've got lecture and need to rush to school..cant even have a peaceful sleep...been buried by work..finally law assignment completed n submitted...now is finance..monday got presentation and a test..how to complete so many things...still got the bloody handout to do...argh...
organs failing...now having headache..intestine twisted...oh no..oh yesh..pain in my ass again..due to many late nites...bro says that i am lousy..not used to uni life yet..all the staying up and wadever...hmmm..need a swimming float to sit on...seems to be worst than the last..gosh...
that day...mum asked me if i am comfortable with what i am doin now..studying uni...BRE...hmm..well i never liked studying..not my forte..wads more its not mathematics related..anyway..she said dad shld have let me go australia and study previously...or go learn baking..mayb i'll do that in 3 yrs time when i graduate..haha
that same nite..watched a HK drama..the little sis called all her brothers home n made an announcement..she quit school..woah..cos she went into a faculty she din wan..cos others dun wan her..she gt no interest in studying too...mum says that girl's just like me..
mum n bro dared me to tell dad i want to quit school..
me: pete i want quit school
dad: den wad do u want to do
me: well i can slack n be a free loader at home and leave on ur cpf
dad: cpf oso will have no $
me: nvm we sell this hse den go stay at melville..got $ den
dad: well u decide...its a fine line between smart n idiotic
end of conversation.....
feeling rather stupid nowadays..from the day i stopped maths..brain gt retarded...
friends of mine who used to perform lower then me have all overtaken me..going better uni courses...doing better overseas..more opportunities..
bro says its just me...not fitting into s'pore education system...hmph...
maybe..after all i challenged the system b4..taking O's with exactly 6 subjects...
zombified....
well..i just want to leave this stressful place..too competitive for me...
i choose idiotic...